Today we said goodbye to the kids as they left on an almost 3 week excursion with grandparents. And when they left, I felt like my heart was ripping out of my chest. I missed them instantly. I had a hard time maintaining control of my emotions while we were at church and I found myself having to once again entrust them into the Lord’s care.
Now don’t get me wrong — I am not usually a sappy mom. I love my kids but I have come to realize how healthy it is for Daniel and I to set apart time alone and even to take vacations together. It helps me return a better mom when I get filled up so I can then be poured out again. I also knew that the kids were elated to spend special time with grandparents, being spoiled without end. Regardless, there are just times that a mama’s heart overtakes her reason and rationale. This was one of those times.
Thankfully, Daniel saw the turmoil and unrest in my soul. So he put me at ease by assuring me that if I was still feeling this way in a couple weeks, we would change the plans and return to pick them up earlier than planned. Sometimes it just takes knowing there is another possibility, another route we CAN take, even if we never need to, that just puts our soul at rest. At that point, I was able to focus on the next couple days at hand – meeting people, visiting universities, and evaluating whether the Dallas/Fort Worth area would be where we would plant our family next.